What do you see?
The world in my mind has been more grim than I expected it to be these past weeks. What was happening outside my mind was filled with new and weird and exciting and challenging things I could only hope for in the past but I was too short-sighted and self-centred to be filled with as much gratitude and joy and hope as I should have.
I wasn’t totally ungrateful, but the nagging pessimism and paranoia in my mind kept me from fully experiencing the moment and caused me to act in immature and selfish ways. I only saw this as I perused my daily and weekly journal entries. I became an outsider and a spectator in my own life by reading my journal and it seemed like I watched myself act as an annoying, despicable character in a film.
It feels like I’ve been awakened and healed from a long, poisoned sleep and I’m suddenly filled with hope and joy and gratitude for all that has transpired because now I can use them to become a little better than my yesterday self and love those around me just a little more.
Amidst all these, I realised how easy it is to be too focused on the present without regard for the past and the future. I was taken aback by the surprises that hit me that I forgot how much I longed for the experiences I was already having, how much I love those around me, and just how beautiful everything is, despite all the imperfections that don’t even matter now anyway.
I also realised all the more just how important it is to frequently take a step back and see things from afar to put everything in perspective.
What do you see?
I hope that whatever or whoever it is, you’ll remember to see it from a different perspective too. Because it’s often not all there is.